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[14 Feb 2005|09:07pm]
i think the reason this day makes me feel so crappy is because i don't have a valentine. i'm sure it wouldn't be half bad if ANY boy did ANYTHING for me today.
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[27 Oct 2004|05:07pm]
I have so many things to say, but nobody to listen. So I figured I would give this LJ thing another whirl.

Reading back at my other entries, I realize that my wording is always really akward, and nothing comes out the way I want it to. I sound dumb and pathetic. But that's all about to change.

Life used to revolve around my friends, but I don't really feel like I have any anymore. Nobody ever calls, and it just feels like nobody gives a shit. My life is basically revolving around me, myself, and I. I go to school, go home and do nothing, and then the process repeats. It feels like I'm on the outside looking in, with everybody changing except me. All of the sudden people have developed personalities, and I just feel the same. I wish I could just break out and stop being myself. I always feel akward, and unwanted. Like people don't want me to be around. I just feel alone.

The thing is that everybody else's problems seem real. I feel like I'm complaining about nothing. In five minutes, I'm going to read this thing and think its stupid and erase it. Or maybe I'll resist the urge.
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[30 Jul 2004|11:48am]
Just got home from Israeli version of camp. I had an awesome time! In 12 days I made tons of friends and had a shitload of fun. I came expecting shit, but it was so freaking awesome.

I didn't have any hook ups, although there was this guy I had the MASSIVEest crush on, but I was good, and I don't think I showed it what so ever. I barely even had a real one on one convo with him, but thats alright.

We had a dance club type thing on the last night, and I sorta learned how to shake my ass. My new goal in life is to be able to dance well. As if that's ever going to happen, but i'll try.

We had two councelors, Noam (Israeli male, 25ish, big boned, took himself too seriously) and Lisa (Canadian female, 23, the most gorgeous person on the planet, and one of us). Lisa was totally one of us. When we sneaked out at night, she was looking at us through the window and was like way to go. Noam on the other hand would have freaked and sent us all away from camp.

The whole area was so gorgeous (except for the buildings which looked like shit and a half). The whole place was surrounded by the meditereanian [spelling?]. Second to last night of camp we snuck outta our rooms and we to sit and look at the ocean. We got these guys that worked there to get us some beer and cigarettes. It was so much fun. We stayed up till like 5 in the morning. Actually, I took a 15 minute nap on while putting my head on avi (mexico's) stomach and avi (moti) put his head on mine.

I think I gained all the stomachage I lost back, cause even though the food was shit, I was so hungry the whole time. Plus I ate like tons of bisly and other snacks.

Our group was the perfect mix of 21 people, 15 to 17 1/2. We had people from so many different places... a bunch of places in israel, avi from mexico, joanna and arianne from guatemala, nimrod- an ex kenian that now lives in israel, stephan from miami, ilana from canada, danielle from ny, me laurie and karen from NJ, gahl from california, and edan from atlanta. and somehow it all worked. I think we're gonna try to have lunch in tel-aviv today, but I'm not sure it will work... plus I'm not sure if I can get there. We'll see.

I WAS A COLOR WAR GENERAL!!!! At ramah, it was always the coolest people with the most spirit that were generals, and it was such a complement that I was one. It was like a 5 second confident boost. I lost my voice for the very first time, even though it only lasted about 15 minutes. Our team lost, but we still had an awesome time.

The singing was better then at ramah. The camp was so small (140 campers, i think) but everybody had so much spirit and we were banging on tables and jumping around 10x more then ramah. I loved it so much, cause jumping around scream singing is my fav part of camp.

There's this israeli comp. on the israeli kids channel where all these classes compete and then the one that wins gets to go somewhere overseas. It lasts all school year long, and I remember watching the show as a little kid. The second place winner got to go to the camp, and a couple of days a filming crew came and filmed us. Yesterday we all watched the segment that aired. It was pretty cool, even though it made the camp seem better t hen it was.
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[16 Jul 2004|01:43pm]
I realized my entries are too long, so they won't be anymore. I'm just bored and have nothing better to do then write in an online thingy that nobody reads because nobody is home.

Israeli boys are mostly hot and I'm waiting for camp-ish to meet some. Do I smell potential action? Ilana (girl going there that I correspond with) seems really nice, and reminds me somewhat of the real Ilana. She likes the music everyone is so gaga about but she doesnt seem like a poser like that matters anymore. Everyones a freakin poser. I ser, you ser, we all ser for poser. haha. get it? its like the i scream you scream we all scream for ice cream. i have to much time on my hands to think up stuff like this.

my grandma told me about the war and stuff last night. remember stalingrad from global? SHE WAS THERE. how cool, in a sad way? My grandma was a survivor from stalingrad. And she also worked in a commune. my grandma was a part of history. she was telling me about it and all of the sudden I was like woaaaah. that was when i realized and all. i tell ya'll more about it later...
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[15 Jul 2004|05:02pm]
I just read my last entry and it made no sense. Don't mind it, but im just too lazy to delete. maybe i will later.

yesterday i went jean shopping........and........**drumroll**........ i fit a size ten!! and not just in one brand, like all across the board. there was one that was even big, but i bet it was an error, or a wierd brand, since it was one. i bought a size 13 mini skirt the day school ended. that means i went down 3 sizes since school ended. its so easy to lose weight here since all the girls are really thin and i waste my whole day watching ftv when im not doing bio. ftv is the fashion network but its not like style (channel 60) at all. its actual runway shows and designers and models. and theyre so thin that you feel guilty after watching them. theyre about my height i guess, so its really good thinsperation. i dont want to be as thin as them, since it doesnt look good in every day life, but its still perfect thinsperation. and its not that i dont eat either, cause my grandma kinda force feeds me. i dunno. w/e it is its good. also, all my shorts that i bought at aeropostal [?] are big on me now. not just loose, big. i can take one of those fat before and after pictures where the person wears clothes when theyre fat, and then there another picture after theyve lost the weight and pull their pants out and everyone can see how much can fit in there. im so proud. i stopped just bitching and moaning about my weight and now im in control. i got these jeans and they are amazing and they fit perfectly, and im in lust with them. at first i saw size 42 and i thought that ment size 12 and i tried them on and they fit perfect, and then i saw the tag and it showed the american size was 10. and same with the other ones. i was like woah. cause at first i was so proud at the size 12 and then i realized it was a 10 and i was like extatic. wow. 4 more sizes to go and i'll be perfect-weight wise. its probably gonna start getting harder though, so im not getting my hopes up. but im gonna keep up the good work and maybe reward myself with another pair or jeans. or maybe ill get size 8's and then ill celebrate once i fit into them. yay, im so beyond happy.

less good news: i had a lower-eyelid infection. i didnt even know those existed. at first it looked like a bug-bite so i figured it was. teh next day the bug bite turned into things that looked like teeny little white heads, andn my under eye turned all puffy. the next day it became even puffier and it turned red and it hurt like a mofo. my aunt took me to a physician but he wouldnt treat it and told us to go to an ER. omg i was sooo scared and i though i was gonna go blind or something. i was fer-eeeeeeeeaaaaak-ed out. so we went to the ER and the dr. didn't know what it was and though it might be herpes, and i was like eeeewwweee. and then i was like wait but ive never had sex. and then i realized he ment the other simplex, i forget which ones which, and i was totally embaresssed. and sorry abgout all my typos but i hate this keuyboard and im not in the mood to fix it anymore. ok so then he explained it to me. and he said he wasnt even sure it was herpes anyways, and it might bbe something bacterial. so he gave me these pills, the biggest ones you've EVER seen, to take twice a day, and this cream to put on 5 times a day. and then i thought about that song about the girl that brushes her teeth 5 times a day. "she's a glamour girl, she stands so still, wears a feather bra, her hair so high, it starts to sway when she brushes her teeth, five times a day. *something* attitude, night time thrills," blah blah blah.... and then theres a part about her breasts and its like hate her breasts but i love the rest or soemthing of the sort. well its much better now regardless of the song. almost normal, except a teeny bit puffy and a sore'type thing.
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[11 Jul 2004|03:36pm]
another day of boredom.

its like 8:30 or something in the US. just incase you were wondering.

I woke up and my grandma made me french toast. She's been feeding me so much at meals, but i don't have any snacks, cause the stuff my grandparents have is gross. I'll stop eating so much, but i had too, she takes it personally when I reject food. Plus her cooking is so good. I've lost 5 pounds over the summer already, and I'm pretty happy with that. Hopefully I haven't ruined it.

I have this thing under my eye, on the skin. It's really painful. I think i got bitten by a bug there or something. It hurts much.

I finished she;s come undone for school today, what fun. it was actually a pretty good book. im going to do bio soon.

im on the computer at my uncle's house, which is right next door to my grandparents house, but oh so different. my aunt and uncle live in a palacew compared to what my grandparents live in. its a new house, and the architecture is amazing. it's honestly the prettiest and most house i've ever seen. even nicer then the ones in Bel Aire. It's diamond shaped, and theyve also got a beauuuuutiiiiful front yard. maybe ill take a picture so yall can see it. yesterday my aunt gave me a key and said i could come and use everything whenever i wanted, which is great. my grandparents house is boring as sin. the thing is that they are so not modern. they dont even have a microwave. they do have cell phones, but so does everyone in israel. well i guess everyone also has microwaves, but i forgive them.

i went out and finished half of my photo asignment this morning. i had to take 2 rolls of color pictures, and i finished one. i took these awesome pics of the chickens, and other pics around the farm. ill do the other roll in petah tiqvah and the camp.

i might not get to go to petah tiqvah as planned though cause my grandpa has a fever, and its prbably an infection again. he got one from his stoma a couple of weeks ago, because he doesnt keep it clean enough. the stubborn man refused to go to the hospital and got so dizzy he fell on the floor. only then did he agree to go. so i call him this morning and im like how are you etc. then he tells me he has a fever. i start yelling at him and telling him he doesnt shower enough etc. i told him to call a taxi right this minute and go to the hospital. he doesnt! the nerve. i have my grandma talk to him. he doesnt budge. i feel bad about calling my parents a) cause it 7 in the moirning and b) cause theyre on vacation in a bed and breakfast and my bro is at my cousins house. i call my aunt and uncle on my stubborn grandpa's side of the family. they call him, he still won't budge. his living mate, but not girlfriend cause they dont go out or anything, just live together, finally called an ambulance and got his stuff ready. he wanted to wait till the next morning and see how he felt. apparently he forgot what happened last time. he was hospitalized for like 5 days! if he falls he could break his hip or the like. that would be the end. but he doesnt get it. he made me cry. gosh. he doesnt understand that if he waits overnight then the bacteria multiply. and he doesnt understand that if he doesnt get better i wont get to go to the city and ill go crazy cause this place is the most boring place on earth and theres nobody my age and all my cousins are in the army so they arent home so im so bored with absolutly nothing to do at all except when my aunt and uncle take mercy in the evenings when theyre home and take me somewhere. ;lasdfl;kasjd;flkja;dlfja;lsdkfj;akjdsf;aksdjf;akjdsf. this isnt gonna turn out well. i swear.
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[10 Jul 2004|04:54pm]
well i'm here in israel. nothing much to do. im jet lagged and tired so im prob gonna go to sleep soon, even though its only like 5 here. i watched sex and the city with subtitles yesterday. what fun.

i went to the airport and got through the flight and through customs and all, and then i go to get my luggage. i get one suitcase and wait around a gazillion years for the other one. at some point, i realize im the only person standing waiting for suitcases and theres no more coming. i got so fucking panicked. i never ever lost a suitcase, and now that i flew alone, i did. that's my luck. it should be coming tonight though. well yea.

oh and on the plane i sat next to this cute couple, in their 40s or early 50s and they were from cleveland and we knew some of the same people. AND they knew my dad. how wierd. what a small world.
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[08 Jul 2004|11:55am]
I'm leaving on a jet plane... don't know when I'll be back again.


im leaving today! no more boredness. yay! I'm leaving the house around 8 oclock at night, and call me to say goodbye. a whole month! woohoo-ish. im COMPLETELY packed, and completely ready. i even have my parents credit card. yeaaaaah. im seeing mis abuelos! and mis tios and primos tambien.

we got this list of whose our age at the resort/camp thing and i keep on emailing this girl and shes emailing me back and she seems pretty cool. at least 1 normal person. although, internet personalities aren't always what they seem. doesn't that sound like a fortune cookie? not really... but thats alright. she's from vancouver, and my mom's cousin/famous hair transplant dermatologist lives there. nto that it really matters but yea.

yesterday i went to a madonna concert with my parents, and surprisingly enough it was awesome. i respect her so much, because shes been able to stay ontop for so long. i think shes older then my dad, but she doesnt look it. i was getting tired just watching her! she was jumping around, and shes such an amazing dancer, and singing at the same time. and shes definat. older then my mom, and the things she was wearing my mom would never in a million years be able to wear. it was really awesome. i heard there was going tno be a lot of politics, but there were only like 2 songs. 1 had starving children in the video background thing (i think the song was imagine) and there was a song with all these religious people walking around. like dancers dressed up as nuns, rabbies, army people, monks, muslim women, etc. except they were wearing REALY short skirts. i thought that was pretty funny. like how the nuns were wearing the head thing, but they were wearing super short micro minis. well actually for a buncha songs she was wearing army print type clothes. and there was this song and there were flags on the video screen thing behind her. they kept on like changing, but the way they did it was cool. i was pissed there was no israeli flag, but then at the end it was there the longest, since it was the last song and all. but then it began getting covered with the other video screens and that wasnt cool. but yea. omg and for a couple of songs she was wearing this t-shirt that said kabalists do it better. i think im gonna make a shirt like that.

alright well im off now.

till next time.
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[05 Jul 2004|10:30am]
my week has been pretty much boring due to the lack of homely people. that's alright, i'm going away in a couple days. of course when i'm gone is when everyone comes back. what luck i have.

yesterday i went to see the fireworks. i fail to understand why everyone, myself included, finds them so amusing. bunch of booming sparkles in the air. i saw a couple people, talked to a few humans, which i haven't done in over a week. excluding my family, but they dont really count.

it was my first 4th of july as an american. how exciting. not. we went to my cousin's house in princeton and had brunch and hung out with everyone. get this though, it was indian food. how american. not that i dont LOVE indian food, it's just the wrong day to have it. 4th of july is more a hamburger and hot dog type of day.

well yea. i'm going to the gym and then pack and study. i haven't updated in a while, but thats only because theres like nobody to read this shit. maybe i'll update some more from israel. probably not since i won't have a fucking computer to update FROM. well yea. what fun.
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[30 Jun 2004|10:54am]
so my parents freaked at me yesterday. and now i'm not getting a laptop. i hate when they do this to me. and they do it all the time. and its not fair. if theyre not sure 100% then they should just tell me. they have these secret expectations that i have to meet, couldn't they just tell me from the beggining? urgh. i hate when they do this to me. hate it hate it hate it. i feel like a snotty brat saying it too, but its true. they just build up and let me get psyched up, and then they let me down. always. and they took my camera away too. :`( so now it's a family camera and i'm sometimes allowed to use it. gee thanks. it's not like i even asked for it, my dad offered it. i dont even care about it that much so it doesnt matter. but i spent hours looking for a good computer and a good deal and i didn't ask for the best, and i didnt complain. i didn't even complain when we went all the way to Islin to go to this store to see if they can refurbish my dad's old computer, from when i was in 4TH GRADE. and it would be really cheap, but w.e. my problem with it was that it was a pentium 2 and thats crap, and they cant upgrade that. but i didnt complain, i didnt cry, i didnt do jack. and now im not getting any computer. they always do this to me. always. it was the reason i made myself psyche up for israel. i dont really want to go. at all. and now this. my mom was like well when are you gonna use it. well, bitch, ill tell you. ill use it at my grandparents. theres nothing better to do there. thats what im doing for 2 freakin weeks. staying with my grandparents. the rest of the time im being shipped off to some crappy faux camp with only 6 other fucking peopple my age. who are probably going to be the biggest dorks on earth. right along with me. so im going to sit around on a farm for 8 days at my grandparents and stare at the cieling. then i'm going to go to the city and walk around for 10 fucking days of nothing. its the smallest city in the world. and the 1000 dollars they told me they were giving me for spending money is actually 1000 shekels. thats exactly 222.345 dollars. of course my mom expects me to completely replenish my wardrobe there. for less then 250 fucking dollars. and i have other stuff to do with that money too. im expected to take my grandpa and his girlfriend out for dinner, which i dont really mind, but that 30 dollars at least. then i have to basically provide my own food for 10 days because my grandpa eats cottage cheese and coco powder for breakfast lunch and dinner. thats gross, and thats about all they have in theyre house, except like plain bread. not even like butter. maybe a little cheese. and his girlfriend makes gross food. actually she makes good gaucamole. but thats it. i cant live on bread and cheese and guacamole for 10 days, so i have to go and buy food. so thats like another like 60 dollars? i dont know how much. ill say 40, cause 60 seems like a bit much. but rachel ray spends 40 A DAY and seems to think its a bargain. but she has a lot of snacks and stuff, which i won't be having. so ill say 40 for 10 days. so were down to 152. now we have cabfare to and from the camp which will be about 40 each way. that leaves 72 bucks. then gifts for my parents and brother and people here thats all about like 30 bucks, i guess, i could get cheap things. no offense. 42 dollars left. then i have to get my mom loofas, cause shes crazy. thats like 2 dollars or something. so 40 spending money. gee thanks mom. i mean, 1000 dollars is a lot of money, i dont need that much. but 222 is a bit low. and no new computer. gosh i feel like such a brat saying all this. but its true, for what i'm expected to spend, that's unchangeable, its crazy. so i can get like a couple of shirts. 4 maybe, unless i find a sale, which is pretty rare in the middle of the fucking summer. im such a hippocrate i just bitched for so long. please accept my sincere apology. thank you, and good day.
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[21 Jun 2004|07:54pm]
guess what i just did? got a bikini wax. man, that shit was painful. ouch. *cringes* it was so wierd. the lady was like lifting my underwear and stuff. and she made me put my legs up and in different positions for "easy access". gosh that was hell.

ok so im having a pole. which bathing suit do you like better...
there are pics up here:

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[21 Jun 2004|03:45pm]
I was at best buy looking at laptops with my dad. My dad's like "do you want a digital camera?" and i thought he was kidding so I like "yea" and then he was like "ok" and then he got me one. Isn't that great? woohoo, im so happy.

so it was evening, morning a third day. no actually it was just evening and i didn't have anything to take pictures of so i took pics of myself making really wierd faces. go there to see them bitch. they are the product of lots of love and boredom. just like you. haha, i crack myself up. but yea. im just cool like that.
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[19 Jun 2004|09:29pm]
I went to my mom's work's "family fun day". mad fun. she works for a generic pharmacutical company, and she basically chooses what they make (shes their portfolio manager or something). most the people there were like factory people and some of the office job people like my mom. it was like craigmere type place but worse. except they had really good door-prizes. it was for people with kids, so they had raffles for like diff age groups, but i didnt win anything. they had really good cd players, a dvd player, a dvd movie set, and a bunch of gift certificates for my age group. each person was only allowed 1 raffle ticket, but i managed to get two, and i asked my dad to get me another one but he wouldnt help me cheat. everyone else had like 5 tickets, and i didnt win anything. and then they had a raffle for the adults, and it was like awesome things like dvd players and digital cameras and things like that. so my mom's name gets called and guess what she won? a 14 piece cooking set. hahahaha. we have such bad luck. its not even like 14 pots, its 7 pots and the other 7 pieces are covers. hahahahaha. i felt bad though, because i thought the factory people would need it more then like a digital camera. i would totally trade them to be nice. haha.

im going israel shopping with my mom tommorow. i need a wet-suit because im getting a scuba license! plus im gonna learn how to surf, but thats not as important. woohoo. im super excited. oh, and i also need bathing and im really dreading it. its so cliche to hate going bathing suit shopping but i do. according to my cousins, all the girls in israel are sluts and im gonna need a bikini, but there is no way in hell anybody is going to get me into one of those. and if they do, i pity their eyes. if only they made nice one pieces. i might order a really long tankini from victorias secret. theyre all like push up bras though, which is kinda weird. i like this one any thoughts? well w/e. who cares about the bathing suit, i care about the fucking beach. im so excited. sooo excited. sooooooooo excited.

i called my friend today, and she doesnt hate me or think im wierd because she hasnt talked to me in a year and im really excited. it was like the last time i saw her was yesterday or soemthing. G-d, i love that country so much. its the kind of patriotism i dont think i could ever feel for the US. its like a connection. my speaking hebrew is crummy when i speak to my parents or someone on the phone. but its like the instant i get on the plane i can speak it again. i cant wait to hear and use the new slang and stuff like that. i cant wait to CURSE in hebrew!!! i never get to do that over here. ahhh, im so excited. omigosh. ahhh. lsdkfaldkfj;adkfj. i can't wait to go clubbing and things like that. i cant wait to buy REAL falafel. i can't wait to eat REAL hummus. i cant wait to call hummus chummus with an israeli accent. i cant wait to see my grandparents and my friends. i cant wait to shop in the greatest mall on earth. i cant wait to go to the beach and have it be so much fun and so much not like a crummy jersey shore beach. i cant wait till real ice-cream and really good veggies. the thought of those tomatos is making me hungry. cottage cheese!!!!!! i cant eat the american crap, ewwwwwwe. i cant wait to walk in the street and hear people talking in hebrew. i want to walk into a mcdonalds and not be able to order a cheeseburger, even though i wouldnt anyways, because those are gross. i cant wait to collect eggs on the farm and try out the new horses. i cant wait till july 19! i cant wait to watch movies throughout the whole plane ride, even though its at night, because i cant fall asleep on planes. i cant wait to hug my uncle and aunt and cousins when i get to the airport. i wanna go to the customs line for people with israeli passports, and feel all special. i wanna wait an hour for my luggage to get there. i wanna be on the screen that shows the arrivals as they walk onto the outside. gosh. i seriously cant wait.
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[16 Jun 2004|03:58pm]
You know that all potatoes have eyes. Well, Girl Potato and Boy Potato had eyes for each other, and finally they got married, and had a little sweet potato, whom they called 'Yam.'

Of course, they wanted the best for Yam. When it was time, they told her about the facts of life. They warned her about going out and getting half-baked, so she wouldn't get accidentally mashed, and get a bad name for herself like 'Hot Potato,' and end up with a bunch of Tater Tots.

Yam said not to worry, no Spud would get her into the sack and make a rotten potato out of her! But on the other hand she wouldn't stay home and become a Couch Potato, either. She would get plenty of exercise and eat well so as not to be skinny like her Shoestring cousins.

When she went off to Europe, Mr. and Mrs. Potato told Yam to watch out for the hard-boiled guys from Ireland. And the greasy guys from France called the French Fries. And when she went out west, to watch out for the Indians so she wouldn't get scalloped.

Yam said she would stay on the straight and narrow, and wouldn't associate with those high class Yukon Golds, or the ones from the other side of the tracks who advertise their trade on all the trucks that say, 'Frito Lay.'

Mr. and Mrs. Potato sent Yam to Idaho P.U. (that's Potato University) so that when she graduated she'd really be in the Chips. But in spite of all they did for her, one day Yam came home and announced she was going to marry Tom Brokaw.

Tom Brokaw! Mr. and Mrs. Potato were very upset. They told Yam she couldn't possibly marry Tom Brokaw because he's just.........................

Are you ready for this?

Are you sure?

OK! Here it is!

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wooohoooo [15 Jun 2004|02:26pm]
so i come home, and i eat lunch. then i go to my room to get my bio study guide. and i can't fucking find it. so i call my mom and ask her if she knows where it is. does she? YES SHE DOES!!, she told our cleaning lady to throw it AWAY!!! along with a pile of other study guides on my desk, non of which matterbecause i have them on my computer, except bio which I gave up on typing for and i HANDWROTE. she thought they were trash!!! urggggh

if anyone wants a spanish 2 enriched study guide, for a good bio-e study guide, contact me ASAP. (submissions must be e-mail-able/fax-able)

phone: 973-758-9197
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[14 Jun 2004|06:42pm]
I changed my layout again, because I was bored of studying for finals. Tell me if you like it.
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[12 Jun 2004|02:22pm]
shalalala barbie. that jingle is so stuck in my head. and its so bothersome. ahhh.

shalalala barbie
im gonna rip your head of
shalalala barbie
dieeeee bitch!

and i really like my new user pic. its my grandpa and one of my nicer cousins. it was when my cousin and his wife were visiting my grandpa in israel. my grandpa is sooo happy in that picture. i like it. one of them is bald and the other is balding. hahaha. i have balding cousins. hahaha. don't they look alike? theyre both shiny and they have glasses and theyre bald/ing, and i think they look alike.
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you keep coming back, like really bad heartburn [11 Jun 2004|05:07pm]
haven't updated in a while. boohoo.

jen turned me on to useless ID, which i now find awesomely awesome. if they have any shows while im in israel, ill try to go. there are also other good israeli bands that i've never bothered to hear about before. hapussy shel lucy and beer7 are awesome too. who knew israel had a music scene? i thought israel just had subliminal, the rapper i find so amusing. israel is such an awesome place. i wish i still lived there in some ways, but i don't know. i think i'd be a totally different person if i grew up in israel. the kids there are so not as innocent as us. i was thinking about it the other day. all the crap theyve had to deal with since they were fetuses. theyve gotta enjoy every single day they live, because tommorow, they might not be here to enjoy it. and i guess it applies to us too. who knows? you might be hit with a car tommorow. but it applies to them in so much of a greater way. can you imagine? they party a lot more then we do, but just think of how dangerous it is for them just to go to a club. am i less innocent then you USA born and breds? probably not. i had to deal with the crap till i was 9, but i guess in some ways, it was a long time ago. plus at that age, i was completely at the mercy of my parents, and i personally didn't have to worry about security. i don't think my parents did either. its kind of like a daily routin. day to day, as americans, we dont really appreciate our security. technically, people in israel are a lot more secure. theyve got security checks everywhere. if somebody wanted to, they could just walk into a mall and blow the place up. the difference is that here mostly nobody does. in israel, even with ALL the security, some of those dick wads manage to get through. im excited about going there over the summer, i have tons of plans and things to do. when i go nowadays, i feel like such a tourist. not in a way that i go do touristy things, but you'd be surprised how much changes in a couple of years. when i lived in israel, the situation wasnt as bad. i think it got worse around when i was in 5th or 6th grade. but its not just the security. the city i lived in, i used to think it was really vibrent and alive. it seems kind of dead and abandoned now. not like theres nobody there, people still keep on walking in the streets and doing daily stuff. it just looks like a city with no hope. maybe it always looked like that, i guess i never noticed because i was there everyday. i hope it didnt change for the worse again. i truely and honestly hope so. i also hope i won't be a pain in the arse when i go there, and someone will take me under their wing and be friendly. i havny talked to my friends in over a year, i dont even know what they are like anymore. i hope theyll hang out with me. and i cant wait to see my grandparents, who mean so much to me. my grandpa on my dad's side says he cries because he misses us everyday. i miss him too. and i wanna see my other grandpa's new "plumbing." having a tube with piss coming out into a bag actually sounds kind of interesting. we'll see.
6 say potato. you say fuck off.

[06 Jun 2004|07:10pm]
I'M GETTING GLASSES!!! woohoo!! i've only waited for this my whole entire life!!! i think its a .25, which makes me feel special, because thats one twenty eighth of my lucky number. they're super cool reading glasses. i get to bypass that whole wearing glasses for a couple weeks for my twichy eyes. they were twichy because i needed the reading glasses, and my eyes were straining. so yea. but i do feel compromised, because i dont have 20/20 vision anymore. it was one of the bigger prides of my life. it was one of my fave things about myself. eh, ill live.

i took the SAT2 hebrew on saturday, just for the hell of it. i considered taking a peak at the bio, but i wasn't sure if that was cheating or not, so i didnt. they said something in the beginning about how you're not supposed to work on other tests while in the hour for your test, but they didnt say anything about looking. i just assumed it would be wrongful to. but then again, when you assume, you make and ass outta you ("u") and me. whatever.
2 say potato. you say fuck off.

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